It's hard because I realize that chronic conditions like this are not like the common cold. It seems like with a cold improvements are linear. With this disease it is not the same. I get a little better, then worse, then a little better than before, and then much worse. Last night I pretty much spent the night in the bathroom. I fell asleep curled up like the "potty people" icon on this page. I was afraid to go back to bed.

I have been on celiac.com, which is a great resource, but it does not have the aspect of the colitis that this site has. I feel a little bit more hope now just finding that this place exists and more importantly that people actively post to it.
I've been on Asacol since 2003, and on the whole I am happy with it. However, given how the past 4-5 weeks have been going I am beginning to wonder if I need to get the steroid shot. During flare ups I try to be really nice & gentle to my body. I can only really eat cream of rice & a GF/DF meal replacement from Canada, designed especially for the inflamed GI. As I start to feel better I slowly introduce foods. I'm also using probiotics.
I'm just really beat down right now - I am 100% sure I'm not the first. I am relieved I am not alone. I do really think I will get better. But I am just not there yet, and when my insides are as inflamed as they are right now it's just miserable. So, thanks for existing...